As most of you know, I teach college literature and composition here on our little island. It offers terrible pay and hours, and I love it. Most of my students are active or retired military members, or dependents of military members, and I always have a handful of local Japanese students with limited English proficiency.
I have been spoiled the last couple of years with small classes who mostly believe me, who plunge into difficult literature and subjects, and who trust I will carry them through to understanding. This fall I had a class of skeptics. They were skeptical of literature, writing, and me. It’s okay, of course. I’m skeptical of me too most days. And skepticism if handled well can be a great place for learning to begin sometimes.
Students always come to my class wary of poetry—some ask about it the first day. “Are we going to have to write a poem?” big burly Marines ask me in horror and trepidation. I usually reply, “Have you deployed to an area of conflict?” Without fail, they all have. “Then I think you can handle a poem, but no, you won’t have to write one, just read and explain one to the class.” Their eyes widen and they guffaw and dodge and declare they can’t/won’t/shouldn’t/couldn’t.
This particular class was even more resistant to poetry than usual. I stayed late one night talking with a student who was frustrated because she claimed she didn’t understand any of the poems in our book. We picked out a short poem by Billy Collins called “Divorce.” She said she understood this one, but it was clearly too short for a presentation or paper.
“Why?” I asked. “People have written books over a few lines of poetry. There are entire fields dedicated to essays and scholarship about poetry.”
“It’s a JOB?” she said incredulous. “Why? Those people need to get a life!”
I laughed and shot back. “Yes, I probably do.”
Realization crept over her face and she reddened.
“I’m sorry. I didn’t mean you. I just don’t understand. What’s the point?” she asked.
I grinned. I wait in anticipation to be asked this question each semester, and if no one asks, I still answer it during the second half of any course.
The point is this: words matter. Stories matter. Great literature holds up a mirror to our humanity and asks us what we will do with our horrors, suffering, and frailty. It is often an uncomfortable journey, but so rewarding. My skeptics and I leaned into each other for a semester and we asked hard questions together—listening, speaking, and laughing. I am unbelievably grateful to feast at this table year in and out, whether in a formal classroom setting, a coffee shop, or my own dinner table. It’s my prayer for you too, friends. May you listen well, speak softly, and laugh often in the coming year.
OH……. Iove you my friend!!! Beautifully written as always!!!
Thanks, Nicole. Miss you all so much! Merry Christmas!